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tangle
00:43
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Music is a compulsion.
it's like eating breakfast
or popping a zit
it's embarrassing
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2. |
level
02:56
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it’s consequential
for your body
to be detached at any given time
so you pack it up on your balcony
it’s dangerous being honest
so you cover it up
it’s just that easy
but now you’re busting at the seams
oh what a way to be
it’s consequential
to your body
to facilitate the way you’re sleeping
always waking up so early
my dad said you can’t go
and burn up your candle like that
but the fire is raging
and you can’t help but burn up your candle
when you’re a book of matches
you have a purpose but you put it on the back burner
to hold up a table
whose legs are is uneven
by space about your size
the table is broken
you’re not broken
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3. |
the egg cracked
02:38
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what can I be if I can't wield my own self expression?
isn't that important?
when the egg cracked, now it's all out in the open.
everything is cyclical (I think)
I've never been "me"
I'm poured in a mold to fit "somebody"
what the fuck is my purpose?
so I said:
"ask me anything"
but we just fell asleep
everything is wonderful (i think)
and everything is awful in the same way.
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4. |
the self control myth
02:51
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the squared off
fiji water bottle
condensation mark
right where we left off
where i brought
you back all of your clothes
and the lomo, but you let me keep the microwave
now all that’s left is
an unopened bottle
of some apple cider vinegar
and a sun bleached
piece of beached reenforced glass
were the good things not what they seemed?
working on my posture in the morning
watching what i’m eating
buzzed my head again
well that’s nothing new
read a headline about the self control myth
where i’m fussing with these stupid childproof lids
for my st. johns wort, and multivitamins
i take sleeping pills but still wake up at 3am
now all that’s left is
an unopened bottle
of some apple cider vinegar
and a sun bleached
piece of beached reenforced glass
maybe the good things weren’t so bad
all that’s left is some red hair in the shower
and some fuji instant photographs
from the kitchen table
i’m just trying hard to work on myself
i’m just another person that i don’t really know that well
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5. |
stink
02:16
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always under construction
always doing things i think i have to
back, and forth
in an eternal pendulum
on a piece of paper
an ant unwittingly passes through dimensions
but it feels the same
i am less cultured than the petrie dish
i am much less than the sum of my contents
always under construction
but who's to say what's good for me?
i haven't showered once this week
i'm always under the thumb
of something bigger than myself
seething deeper inside of me
the insidious insecurities
i am less cultured than the petrie dish
i am much less than the sum of its contents
i wanna be less
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6. |
good
02:29
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i’ve gotten so good at justifying my hang ups.
but you left the house
that’s gotta count for something
going out pretending that everything’s fine
but i keep on doing things i know that i don’t like
i just want to make it good,
but i can’t keep making adjustments
people tell me:
“it’s normal, but Jay you just can’t force it”
shrug it off again, you took yourself for a ride
put it in a box and then draw the 4th line
in this tesseract with your demons
it’s so hard just to face them:
“i should go and visit my mom and dad”
“seeing you tonight, it made me upset”
i just want to make it good.
real change isn’t just rearranging
inarguably it’s better than nothing
oh, what foresight?
blinded by the sunlight again
untouched and jaded, but i already said it
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lifetime achievement award Milwaukee, Wisconsin
home recording project by Jay
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front to back just so dang good
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milwaukee frans with a lot of gooood ideas
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thoughtful! interesting! creative!
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