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stay inside ponyboy
01:52
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do you tend to be nervous at all cost?
would you want to panic in public restrooms? (of course not)
Cringe at the thought of acting socially
it’s hard not think about all of
your friends successes
and want one of them
despite being happy for their well being
stay inside ponyboy
and regret
nothing ever again
sing a song
write 24 more
you’re a
tongue tied eyesore of a functioning human
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with flossing i’ve come to expect
an amount of blood in my spit
something to do with how often you do it
just like when i go out i wish i hadn't
i see a friend across the bar
but they pretend that they didn’t see me
lately parties suck
going out is rough
and i get cozy so early
lately
is it avoidable?
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slow dog
02:14
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i’m not the amateur i was
but i pretend i’m better than i am
i do all the talking with my hands
the final humiliation
heard a podcast about the BPM
and the speed people walk in any given city
makes me wonder why everybody's moving quickly
no, no it can’t be
no, no it’s not me
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4. |
5 12 times
01:46
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sincere
and advantageous
i’m working on myself
lately
measuring my worth In paychecks again
let me tell ya something
while you’re looking at the hourglass
hoping you can flip it over just so you can start again
but you’re denying yourself
by daydreaming and pretending
you’re saying
music is a garbage pursuit
but you do it
anyways
but you do it
anyways
you don’t hang out
you just complain
you never read you just complain
so now you got your brand new library card and the
pin is the number five twelve times
i looked at the itinerary, i don’t want to go anymore
i wanted a car but i’m working at my student loans
people say i need to put myself out there, but i won’t
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5. |
thorn
02:22
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we find circumstantial humor so astounding
but the volume and values that you challenge are staggering
it’s like you brushed your teeth then drank O.J
set yourself up for defeat then complain anyways
now you’re doubting
that memories have teeth
and barbs
and poke-y things that sink deep
while ignoring
the words that you say
hunt you down
and suck out your creativity
isn’t that something?
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Ivan Ooze
goes back to school
to get his bachelors degree
in clinical psychology
but if his parents knew what
he’d rather do:
spend 6,000 years in a cocoon
just to figure it out
go outside
come back in
go back to bed
"don’t call it a comeback"
cause you might as well have
never left
might as well have
never left
dad comes in with his
“do or die"
do or die ivan, just get a job
mom says sweetie
“everything will be fine if you try"
take your time but you have to leave
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diet spite
02:23
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my dad’s concerned if i’m making money
when the means and form
would be a better hobby
i touched my reflection
and felt how strange and flat my hand is behind the glass
say something good
about what seemed so important at the time
now it’s burned your mouth
you kept it to yourself for so long
thats fine if that’s what you want
No fruits of my labor
no pulp left over
its hard to feel bad when you didn't front the effort
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wrinkle
01:59
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is it really that fun?
so shamelessly committed
to feeling like you fit in
a facet in the problem
but isn’t it just so nice
to be home sometimes
am i as small as i feel?
when i make believe interesting things about me
come on tell it to me straight
i’m boring! i’m so boring these days
"honestly
you cut back on fun things”
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9. |
we've got mice again
01:56
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we’ve got mice again
they’re in the ceiling
shitting on everything
picking snacks
off the traps
the landlord
suggested
chemical warfare
which is kinda fucked up if you ask me
but we've got mice again
ominous
but an honest attempt at conversation
i’m a crutch for a lead pipe
whose had a few too many to drink
so you ram the sharpened piece of amethyst into your forehead
vaporize the representations you find most displeasing
instead of talking bout your feelings
we've got mice again
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It's getting easier to worry about my short term memory.
its hard to believe that despite every day feeling increasingly the same
you cling to the things that keep them interesting
but i’m clocked out on the bad times
reading pretty good advice
an editorial on how to smile through it
but then it sinks in
in 4D from behind and in front of me
its all already happened
and always happening
when the progress bar is buffering
talking about the hard times
waking up is never as nice
as in commercials for coffee
you gotta
own what it is you’re feeling
i take things so slowly
understandably
but inevitably something unexpected
comes undone
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